About 3,5 months ago i started talking with this girl, i could sense from our first chat that she was depressed, she had like every other person the usual problems, i guess somewhat bigger then most people, but not that big, but here is the thing, she has 1 really big problem, and that's not trusting everyone, she doesn't want to talk with anyone about it, she is simply scared of being to vulnerable.
But deepdown she does want to talk about it, i know that because she always letted me know there was something, then when i continued she didn't wanted to talk about it, and then when i continued a bit more she throws everything out.
Thing is that we don't know each other irl, but we live about 25 minutes away from each other (and that's if i go on my bike)
Now i talk to her online, but i can't really reach her, she has this voice in her head that keeps saying that everything i, and her friends irl say is bullshit, her irl friends have no idea about her, i talked a few times with a guy she knows (actually she has a crush on him, not that he knows) and he doesn't have a clue what's going on, although he does know that it's not going right.
Now i promised her not to tell anyone, thing is that i could break that promise, but she will only hate me for it and she will only close up even more.
She is a real mess, she even blocked me from msn for a month, simply because i tryed to help her, she is afraid to be weak, and she felt weak for telling me all sorts of things, now i kept emailing her and all and that helped, but i can't do much more, i talk with her about things, but it always ends with that what i'm saying isn't true and all, and that there is no one that cares about her, and that i'm not really trying to help her and all.
About 1,5 week ago she got into a big fight with her parents, and now she is hardly online, normally she is online everyday for many hours, but in the last week only been a few hours.
Now she just told me that she cut herself open, she used a knive to cut a bit of her arm open, it's a common thing actually, there are quite a few people who cut themselfs abit open to somehow feel better, i read this thing about it with a interview with someone who helps people with that, and actually sometimes do it herself aswell.
She really has some serious problems, but i'm not sure what to do, i know a good friend of her, i got her younger brother his msn, hell i even know her adress and phone number (she once gave me her login of some site which had her info filled in..)
I tryed if she wanted to call or meet but she says she doesn't, and she keep saying she doesn't want to talk about her problems, but the fact is that everytime she talks to me it's about things that is bothering her, so i know she wants to talk about it, i just don't know if i should do something or not, i know i could arrange a meeting with that friend of hers and all, but i just don't know if i should do it.
I do know that if this goes on much longer that it will just become much bigger.
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Originally Posted by Deathsfear
