
Originally Posted by
GohanSSJ
Well first of all, i would again like to point at extreme cases, these should proof that there are somethings you can't leave behind, like the example i gave about that woman who had her kids murdered by the guy she loved who committed suicide after, you will break down either way, they either kill themselves, or they every bit of personality and basicly become a drone.
That said, aslong as you think you can get help that can really help you and all that, then you have hope, you have hope for a better life, you know if you pull everything together that you can change your life. These are not usually the people who commit suicide, though if they do do it, then it's really, really messed up, but those are usually not the people who do it, it's those who don't believe they can be helped, that there is no better life, that their completely crap life they got that moment, is the best they will ever have, their outlook on life is only pain and suffering. They have no hope, they have no hope that anything will ever change, so they feel that they have to decide between pain and suffering, and peace.
Like i said, this is very hard to imagine for those who never had any of those feelings, like i said, i did have the hopeless feeling, and trust me, you do not want to expierence that, but if you ever do, then you will understand it, you will still not agree with the choices in most cases, but you will be able to understand how they have those feelings, the feeling that there really is no way out.
Anyway just try to imagine this.
The past 5 years your life has been crap, you don't go to school, you don't have a job, you have no contact with friends and you spend all day at home, you long forgotten why you are in that position. You tried a couple of times to get a job, but since you are no longer the social person you once were, and all your clothes are messed up due to no money to buy new ones, no one wants to hire you, your friends won't bother with you, and even if they would, then they wouldn't walk around with pretty much a homeless person.
You still have your family, but since all your frustration and negativity is outed against them, you don't have a positive feeling with them either.
You feel like everything you do doesn't work out, it takes you months to build up the strength to do something, and when you do you fail at it. The more time that goes by, the harder it becomes to try something. You become bitter, angry, upset, lonely, everything single feeling you got is a negative one and you can't even remember the last time that you felt loved.
You're going in a vicious circle and you don't see a way out anymore, you give up on trying to make a change.
That goes on for a few years, then something snaps, you become really depressed and you want the pain to end, you still don't know the way out, years ago it was already nearly impossible, but now it really is impossible. Then you give up on everything, you live a little while longer, constantly think about suicide, no one has even a clue that you think about it, which makes you even more depressed, and then 1 day you just think, fuck it, i'm done with this, i can't stand the pain anymore.
If that read was depressing, then imagine being actually stuck in that life for years.