Akaruz, I really don't know what I could say. No words can change fate, as unfortunate as that is. I remember when you infracted me 3 times in a matter of 30 seconds for posting replies to a few debates lol. You quickly reversed them, and applauded me (as well as mentioned it in a temporary sticky) for my formal, and thoughtful posts.
To me, that showed you took the time to think about something, even after infracting. It's a rare quality to see one admit fault, and I commend you on it. Another clear memory that sticks out above all for me personally, was my wedding. You, as well as a few other Mod's, took time out of your lives, to attend the viewing and congratulate me. It pretty much brought tears to my eyes, to know that regardless of knowing the person or not, you showed support for them. In a way, it made me appreciate you and this forum even more.
I am personally going to miss you man, and I wish you and your family all the best. There was a saying my grandmother said to me about a month before she died. "Sometimes in life, the great ones suffer the most, but it's through that suffering, that you see how truly great they are." Not that we need to see you suffer to realize your value, but it didn't hit most people until something like this. Take it easy man, and just know there are people who think very highly of you.