My Suicide Note

[John-Williams]

Good evening RaGEZONE, my name is John Williams and after I write this note I am going to kill myself.

For longer than I can remember I have faced many trials and depressing problems. I am 16 years old and can't seem to understand why I am so sad...
Im so used to being absolutely lifeless and careless each day it is as if I'am in a trance, each day I do what I did the day before. Life has no new adventures for me nor does it excite or intrigue me at all.

I have been following this forum for a very long time, I made this account only for this reason as I felt it would be better if I had my full name displayed.

Chronic misery inhabits my life as I face plenty of problems and can no longer bear with it... I feel like this is the only way out and as i sit here in my dark room with a bottle of pills I am not scared nor do i feel remorse for the choice i have made...

two days ago I tried to get a job because I felt like it would get me out of the house and make me feel better... All i do is sit in the house all day and do nothing I figured that if I got a job It would help to keep me occupied
Well I went to an orientation yesterday and it seemed fine... i had to go again today but my alrm clock didnt go off so I called in and they basically said i was done... That did it... I needed a job to buy new clothes since most of mine are fit for the requirements that we had last year (we had a dresscode)

I barely eat anymore because im just not hungry... All I do is sit on the computer and play Ragecraft... Its a good server and all but thats just not a good life to lead...


But the reason Im posting this on here is because I wanted to thank you all for giving me a glimpse of hope and making me laugh when I felt most down...
When I really felt horrible I would come on here and read the conversations and watch the videos that were posted by others, Sure there were people that were completely ignorant and rude to others but thats just another one of the numerous reasons for me leaving this horrible world....

After i press this Submit new thread button i plan on taking as many pills as i possibly can handle my mom and brother are downstairs... my father isn't there because when I was young he just basically left.. like 4 months ago he came around but I dont think he gives a **** anyways... he isnt here now and I havent seen him in like 2 weeks...

I just dont care anymore at all.. I have heard the saying "life sucks" many times but have tried to look the other way each time but now i have been opened up to the truth and i now realize that life is different for everybody and for me it is absolutely horrible

I wonder what will be on the other side when im dead... will there be a hell or will there be what buddists say?....

Oh well hopefully it will be different than what any religion says because i only see it as an escape...

This is not a sick disgusting twisted joke.. i really am going to get away from this world and im glad im doing so...

So goodbye ragezone... and Thank you.. Thank you for helping me get through this disgusting life that I have endured

So goodbye
John Williams
1991~2007

 

[LordDemonMan]

:'< oh the drama.
Attention whore >_>

 

[KyleEnos]

Srsly... Part of the reason you are killing yourself is because people are rude to each other on a forum?... Wow.

Honestly.. You're 16. Still a baby and your having suicidal thoughts (Which may or may not be true, frankly I don't give 2 shits).

But srsly, all because you can't get a job at the age of 16 and your depressed and because some faggots on a forum are rude to each other, you decide to end your life?

That is pretty pathetic.

 

[LordDemonMan]

The ultimate sacrifice, eh eh?

 

[KyleEnos]

Btw, can a mod run an IP check on him plez?

Lol, atleast he doesn't need to be banned for stupidity xD

 

[Nuklear]

If this isn't a joke...

Um... don't kill yourself dude. -.- You'll regret it man. =/

Teenage is the most difficult phase of your life... but, once you get through it you'll be fine. Trust me. Just don't man.

 

[KyleEnos]

If this isn't a joke...

Um... don't kill yourself dude. -.- You'll regret it man. =/

Teenage is the most difficult phase of your life... but, once you get through it you'll be fine. Trust me. Just don't man.

Actually, he won't regret it, as he'll be dead

 

[LordDemonMan]

He will be "an hero".
Oh Satan, that made my day. Cya in about twenty minutes.

 

[Sentrix234]

Seriously this should be deleted.

 

[KyleEnos]

Still here lol. And right now, I see him viewing the thread...

 

[Sentrix234]

Yea obviously fake... should be deleted and "John Williams" you should be ashamed.

 

[Silvers]

if real : man you are stupid or wtf ? life is great , try to make some good things , have a girlfriend of a paid one , make sex , enjoy , relax , thats the ultimate pleasure .

if not real : good speech .

 

[GohanSSJ]

Sorry, gotta say that this is a cry for attention, and it's not the best way at all to do it. If you want to talk about things, then make a regular topic and talk about those things, but this doesn't lead to anything, wether you do it or not, nothing that is said here will make a difference, so all you do here is ask for attention and nothing else.

 

[SiGGy]

All I do is sit on the computer and play Ragecraft..

Plenty of reason to go emo.

 

[Flameingskull]

even if it were real and that's a bit of a long shot, the fact that he's takinging pills whilke his mother and brother are nearby while also leaving a suicide note that after the event can be seen by them shows that he isn't attempting death.

all he wants is the attention that death could bring, if he really wanted to kill himself he'd leave no note and would do it quickly i.e. hurtling himself off a very tall building or shooting himself in the head.

basic psychology people, when you understand it you know the meaning behind these things.

 

[KyleEnos]

even if it were real and that's a bit of a long shot, the fact that he's takinging pills whilke his mother and brother are nearby while also leaving a suicide note that after the event can be seen by them shows that he isn't attempting death.

all he wants is the attention that death could bring, if he really wanted to kill himself he'd leave no note and would do it quickly i.e. hurtling himself off a very tall building or shooting himself in the head.

basic psychology people, when you understand it you know the meaning behind these things.

Seems more like common sense, rather than psychology.

 

[ElMarshal]

Meh... Spam, habbo and now suicide.

Attention whore

 

[LordDemonMan]

The funny part, he got the attention he was seeking for.

 

[ElMarshal]

The funny part, he got the attention he was seeking for.

Yeah, but then again, there is still **** all other threads worthwhile.

 

[Ionic & Schizo]

Something like this'll be typed on some news website: "While poor tortured so-and-so was dying, the users of Ragezone made fun of his post and dismissed it as a work of fiction."

*no smilie*