long but please read this m8
woah i leave for 2 days and come back to this
dude life doesnt suck its just down atm its just going slow your going to be alive for a loooong time all you need is something to concentrate on to develop other than a game, something for you to feel proud of thats real, i think thats all your life maybe lacking (correct me if im wrong man im just assuming),
look at it this way youve got 3 choices really,
1. end it now - this option however liberating it looks to be isnt really that great, just remember whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger, just think if you get through this bad patch then anything else bad will seem little youlll realise how triffle most of lifes problems really are.
2. ride it out - you can think that if your feeling so bad it will only get better after a certain period of time, this is quite an easy choice to make and you know you'll have good things to look forwards too, you just wont be sure how long untill they come along youll just be accepting whatever life throws at you.
3. grow from the experiance - you can realise that however bad something is it doesn't matter, like i said before its only going to make you stronger.
you have to realise that you arn't going to accept the shit youve been dealt. dont pick option 1 or 2 like most of society. realise you worth more than that, your not the average, your not some bum who works 10 hour days for fuck all day in day out, knowing its gonna get better but not doing anything about it.
you gotta realise you just to use that little something on the inside to build up something you can be proud of, however it has to be something "real" not simply saved as bytes of information.
id recomend something that would eventually involve an element of competition whether its with your self or others, this way you satisfy a basic human need at the same time.
an good easy option would be start a website, but not ome shitty homepage effort start a proper production, get a team together and get some work done, even though the site is saved as bytes of information, the work, the effort the time is real, what you get back from having a well produced website is real, the satisfaction you will gain is enormously real.
you have to realise that its not even that difficult you make this happen, you just gotta step outa the dark, if you down enough to concider suicide what have you got to lose??? go for it man i know i speak for the whole of rz when i say this, i know you can do it
and so do the fucking rest of us, we wouldnt be your friends if we didnt think so we wouldnt take the time to read or to even post here if we didnt believe in you.
if we didnt believe in you then you would be another forum reject, flamed every 6 posts, laughed at when you make a smart comment but your not and we dont, so what does that tell you? it means that you mean something to us, were all part of rz so you dont fucking quit on us,
remember as nike once said, "just fucking do it"
lol
lol at depressed people ><
