Place for my story
I've read trough most of the posts and i recognise this story in myself actually.
Funny, i always used the computer alot, i still do, but im really trying to make its less.
Founds out my grades where suffering and so where my friends.
Everything felt like it was comming to me no matter what to do, i managed to get my grades just heigh enough to pass the year once more over and over again.
Last year i started on a university, it wasnt really what i expected and soon i got lazy as hell.
I didnt really skip any classes though falling asleep in one is just as bad
even worse cuz then you have allready spend time traveling for nothing but thats besides the point.
Anyways, i dropped outa school near x-mas and started working a bit in a greenhouse for some cash.
I looked back at what i did all year and realized i spend most of my time lvl-ing up a computer characted that wouldnt ever add anything to my life. Realized i just waisted my time.
Just before i did that i met a girl that i really liked, she lives in norway and im in holland right now. I worked for a half year, making money and met her on the 4th of april.
Felt like she was a female version of me
just someone that thinks the same way, someone i could talk to about anything, someone that i could laugh with and someone that cared for me. And i have to say that changed everything for me.
Right now im back at school studying busness management and everything is going really well. Im not so lazy anymore and never sleeping in class anymore.
Having a girlfriend in norway made me see that inorder to get what i wanted, a life with her ofcource, i just needed school, a education. And that motivation made everything more eazy to change.
I know how it feels, you wanna change everything but everytime you come to the point where you have to change its like some voice tells you you can just change some other time "one last time wont hurt". They key of failing to change to what u want is delaying.
You keep delaying stuff like "ill do my homework tomarrow" and then the day after u think "oooh still got 1 day to finish it, ill do it tomarrow" the day after that u find out it's way to much to do in 1 day and you just dont make it at all. (just and example but u get what i meen)
My personal advice is that you sould find something that can motivate you, something you really want and something that gives you a reason to do ur best. Letting your parents down is something that just hurts, i expirienced it myself, but your mum and dad saying "im proud of you" is something that, even if its not money
, worth the effort alone.
If you are really into computers then find a study that fits that, if you cant for now then you have to realize its important to do your best right now or else you never can start on a study you like.If you really wanna change yourself then write yourself a big note , explane why you wanna change, with what purpouse and sign it yourself. Then tape it down on your bedroom door or something so you get reminded to what YOU want.
I promise you it feels good to know i changed myself, though im not really where i wanna be yet but that will come. The onlyone that can change yourself is you!
Think about what you want, and dont let yourself down.
Goodluck with this, wish you the best.
Greetz from Marcel, and my girlfriend Stine :wub2: